As you probably know, Fulton relapsed in his ongoing fight with pneumonia. His lungs began to fill up rapidly, causing an experience I’ll never forget. At one point, he only could use 50% of his lung capacity. The staff was working hard to keep his oxygen up. But as one doctor explained, Fulton had the sensation of drowning. I felt helpless as I stood at the side of his bed and gently talked to him. It was heart wrenching. Fulton was in big trouble and outside of prayer, it felt like there was nothing I could do.
The Lord impressed on my heart how God the Father, had similar feelings when Christ hung on the cross. He could have stepped in to save His son but chose not to, due to His great love for us. Christ suffering on the cross was our only hope for redemption. As I thought about this, my mind drifted to Psalm 22, which is the prediction of the sufferings of Christ as He hung on the cross. What I experienced happened to the Father but infinite times more.
I’ll never forget what my family has gone through. I praise Him through all of it, and I know God understands. I received a powerful quote, shared by Mary Ann Putman, from Corrie Ten Boon: “You can never learn that Christ is all you need, until Christ is all you have.” I encourage you to read Psalm 22. Ask God to give you a glimpse of His struggle as His Son died. As someone once wrote, “It must have rained in heaven on crucifixion day.”
“My God, my God, why have You forsaken me?
Why are You so far from saving me,
so far from my words of groaning?
I cry out by day, O my God,
but You do not answer,
and by night,
but I have no rest.
Yet You are holy,
enthroned on the praises of Israel.
In You our fathers trusted;
they trusted and You delivered them.
They cried out to You and were set free;
they trusted in You and were not disappointed.
But I am a worm and not a man,
scorned by men and despised by the people.
All who see me mock me;
they sneer and shake their heads:
“He trusts in the LORD,
let the LORD deliver him;
let the LORD rescue him,
since He delights in him.”
UPDATE: Fulton remains in the hospital and is in much better shape. He didn’t have to have a second surgery on his liver. Fulton has been joking with the nurses (always a good sign 🙂) and continues to improve. Next week, I’ll tell you the whole story of the nicked liver. Meanwhile, thanks for your mighty prayers that have proved so powerful in our lives!
God bless you and please, continue to keep us in your prayers!