I’ve been thinking a lot lately about time spent with Fulton. I feel like I’m not giving him the quality time he deserves. It’s easy to feel guilty if you are a caregiver because it’s like there’s never enough time or emotional energy to give.
What got me thinking, I was talking to a friend of mine who had gone to see Fulton at the nursing home just the other day. He said to Fulton, “Do you know who I am?” Fulton gave him a thumbs up. Then he asked him, “How are you doing?” Fulton gave another thumbs up. Then he asked, “Have you seen your dad today?” And Fulton gave him a thumbs down, which was the right answer. I had not been there.
I felt guilty when my friend told me that story. It was like I wasn’t being the father I needed to be. My friend didn’t intend to put me on performance, but I felt badly I wasn’t there for my son. Life has gotten really busy lately and I haven’t spent as much time as I usually do with Fulton. What do you think I should do? If you have any answers for me, please let me know. I’m a caregiver in need, looking for answers.